Saturday, 3 January 2015
another New Year
Well, here we are again, at the start of a whole new year before us.To celebrate this, I managed to get my page on facebook totally wrong, and was issued with another one, so my original is still here, but I cannot access it unless as a friend... which is utterly stupid, but thats my fault of course* I cannot be thinking straight as I simply could not fix it, and found answers in the forum utterly odd to understand... so I am stuck with trying to friend all my friends, who really are wondering why, since they were already friends** At the start of each new year, the newspapers go into overdrive about the past year and what has been achieved..so I am ruminating here, about what I have actually managed to achieve also.. Since my spinal ops went so wrong almost five years ago, I have not ventured to travel on holiday at all, preferring to do short trips to friends who are very understanding if my body plays up whilst I am with them. Because I am semi paralysed in the lower regions I do not know what is going on there, and can, at times be caught 'very short' and that really is a mess. However during late summer, I was given an amount of money that was a refund, and straight away I bought myself a ticket to visit my brother in his home in the South of France. I went for two weeks, and my body behaved right up until the last day, and luckily we were still at the house, so no disasterous event outside in public* My two weeks were spent in utter easiness with my dear Sister in Law making all the meals, she would not let me help at all... Dinner parties with friends, and daily swimming in their garden swimming pool. The weather was not too hot, and I can tell you it was utter bliss. Added to that, my son Chris and his wife Amy joined us for a few days on their way back from driving around Spain.. magical days indeed. Heartened by this wonderful holiday, I then booked another two weeks in the sun, but this time all the way away in Australia, to see my eldest son, Daniel and his two boys and second wife. They all live in Perth and I am so looking forward to seeing them soon, as I will be leaving on the 23rd of this month! I have even got tickets to visit my daughter in Canada for another two weeks in June. So in a way, last year I managed to break the spell of being bound by my body and have managed to fly further afield. I am looking forward to it, a bit nervous, true, but if I have a disaster, then so be it... cannot worry about it, it might never happen.. I guess that is what I am going to carry with me into this New Year.. That it is absolutely no use worrying about all the 'what ifs',.just to go ahead and DO It! Apart from my acting more positively, I have also been praying a lot for my grandson in Canada. As soon as he turned 16 last May, he left home as he is addicted to smoking Pot, and would not give it up.. He had also been diagnosed with Aspergers' syndrome, but will not take the meds to calm his acute anxiety, finding smoking his way of self medicating. It has been an utter nightmare for his parents seeing their child living in half way houses and hanging out with the 'no hopers' in town. Where it will all lead, we are dreading to think,but I can tell you, a great deal of prayers have been going on.. his parents are still leaving the door open, but at the moment he has decided that he wants nothing more to do with them or his little sister.. so Christmas this year was a hard one for that little family. When I see people making light of smoking marijuanna,I get very upset, as it can destroy young brains, and I have seen it happen all too many times. He knows that he is truly loved, but chooses not to try and see it from their view, he is convinced that he is the only one with the right opinions and attitudes, so it will be a long time, if ever, before he returns home to his family and lives comfortably with them again. Of course he was given everything he wanted, and my girl and her husband worked hard to achieve a high level of comfort, but none of that matters if the family heart is broken. My New Year this year, no resolutions, just a determination to try and live life day by day, and 'not to sweat the small stuff' as they say, and I hope all of you have a great and enjoyable Year, this New Year.