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Wednesday 8 July 2015

I did it**

On my return from Canada last thursday, I managed to continue to relax until Monday when I was driven to the Breast Cancer Unit by my husband. Standing outside waiting to go in, we met another lady who was also going to have a similar procedure, but she already knew that her cells were cancerous and was very very worried. John didnt say much, but sat waiting inside the Clinic whilst I went off to be weighed and measured and tested for my pre op assessment. All in all, it took a couple of hours. Whilst he waited he noticed a young man with a tiny baby, obviously his wife had the dreaded C, and then another lady covering her head with a bright scarf went by. These observations together with waiting for me for a couple of hours really did upset and worry him. However my cells are supposed to be pre cancerous, so after my assessment I tried to reassure him that all would be well the following day when I went in for the actual operation. We had another early night as we have to leave the house around 7 in order to be there at 8 again. He already had told me that if it was him, he would not have the operation, and I must admit that previously I thought I would not let the knife go near me, but I realised that I could not live with it ticking away in me, not knowing whether they were going to develop into cancer ... so my mind was already made up. Tuesday I was at the clinic and waited until 1.30 before the wire was inserted and then I was taken to surgery another hour later.. The next thing I knew, I was back in recovery room, not breathing too brilliantly, but I already had an oxygen mask on, so gradually I began to come around and in half an hour was already feeling not too bad. I waited another couple of hours, before they called John to come and collect me. Returning to the house, I went straight to bed and slept through to this morning.. Today, although still tired my boob is not hurting as much as I expected, but I have really taken to task and not involved myself in anything to do with housework, just read and watched the computer... So, here my little tale ends... next Thursday I will go to have the results of the operation told me, and then a date to start the radiotherapy.. I am relieved that the op is over, I was thinking of my friend in Spain who had an operation on her throat and then although the operation had been successful, she died of a massive heart attack,, and of course she did not know that was her future.. so I was thinking,'' that might be me.'.. luckily it was not.. but you do get to think strange thoughts from time to time don't you**? by the way my holiday in Canada was so lovely, I shall write about it soon and put pictures up.. glad to have seen my girl again after not seeing her to cuddle for over 6 years! <

6 comments:

  1. I have been thinking of you, I am so glad its over, well not the radiation but the surgery,,you have such a wonderful attitude and obviously a steadfast loving husband and thats a strong power! Best wishes to you,,

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  2. It is strange because I have mentioned to a few people that I would not mind having my breasts totally removed because I feel like I am just waiting to find out that I have cancer. They are usually incredulous. They think I am crazy to have my breasts removed. All I can think of the opposite of. "You can't take it with you". In this case, I can take them with me. And I don't intend for that to happen.
    I have genetic counselling in August and another mammogram and breast ultrasound in December. It is a comfort to know that at least right now I do not have cancer. Pre-cancer. But not cancer.

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  3. I'm happy to hear that it's over. And I hope all goes well with the radiation. How wonderful that your husband is so supportive.

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  4. Glad it all went well and you were wise to have the operation -- "better safe than sorry," as they say. Looking forward to hearing about your trip over here to Canada!

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  5. So glad you have that surgery behind you and delighted to hear that you had a great time with your girl. So looking forward to hearing about your adventure!

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  6. Sigh. I'm like you're husband. I don't want to know. It's the attitude that kills, I'm sure. Yours is MUCH healthier! Bravo, Janzi!

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